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Friday, August 24th, 2007
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3:53 am
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do you ever feel like if you don't do it right now, it will not ever happen?
maybe it's a sign.
:do signs exist and/or are they relevant?
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| Friday, January 19th, 2007
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12:29 am
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there's only so much i can take before it all breaks..
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| Sunday, September 24th, 2006
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12:36 am
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also in the spirit of procrastination!
i apparently have become obsessed with lighting.
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| Thursday, September 7th, 2006
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12:10 am
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many of you will probably thank your lucky stars that you weren't around me today primarily because of my constant misuse of the word "itch"
i itched it, i cant stop itching it, etc.
when i see an animal, i can only think about how many fleas are crawling all over their body and how many of those fleas will leave their vicious mark upon my skin. my feet currently have 15 bites on them. i am now immune to anti-itch cream because i was applying it liberally, very liberally and now i have switched to benadryl's extra strength (i think the words 'extra strength' are only in there for consolation) itch relief spray. this flea problem has become my new obsession. i have sprinkled flea killing powder all over my room and vacuumed and now i have quarantined myself in my flea-free (hold your breath!) room. but, honestly i am becoming paranoid or obsessive, i can't decide which, with fleas. it reminds me of when everyone was getting sick and i was very paranoid about not getting sick that i made dan open all the doors for me and i used napkins to push down the lever on the soft-serve ice cream machine. now, i wear socks 24 hours a day, both to stop me from itching (or scratching, for some of you) and to prevent further bites. this is becoming serious, people. you know when you are about to fall asleep and you sometimes feel like you missed a step or you fell and you jerk awake completely stricken with this weird feeling of anxiety? well, i used to do this, but last night instead of missing a step or falling, i jerked awake to the picture of a flea crawling through white fur.
god save me, and kill the fleas!
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| Sunday, June 4th, 2006
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9:35 pm
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Although this is a bit delayed, i still wanted to share with you folks some pictures from the MUN conference in New York.
The conference made me want to kill myself, but the people i met made it all worth while. well, kind of.
( representin' nyc )
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| Thursday, April 13th, 2006
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11:11 pm
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i have many guilty pleasures that distract me from doing any sort of work. and i am all for indulging myself whenever possible.
wow, that sounded dirty. but, i am not dirty. i am CLEAN! CLEAN! CLEAN!
speaking of being clean and pure, i cannot wait to celebrate the resurrection of jesus through the reinstallation of my beloved aim. i know you are all dying without me. or maybe vice versa.
current music: crooked rain, crooked rain
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| Sunday, March 19th, 2006
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3:09 pm
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i am a gum chewing fiend.
i look super obsessive compulsive.
surrounding my computer, there are gum wrappers all rolled up neatly in a row.
clear evidence that i am writing an essay.
that, and i am updating livejournal.
so, hi kids.
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| Wednesday, March 8th, 2006
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4:39 pm
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dear god,
thank you for making thin mint girl scout cookies. i love them and they make me happy. oh, and thank you for milk too. it tastes very good with the cookies.
love always,
monica.
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| Saturday, March 4th, 2006
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11:35 am
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I'm pregnant.
really?
no. yes. no. yes.
hahaha. i love angels in america. classic.
i intend on using this sometime in my life. why? because i am eevvviilll and power hungry.
i miss aim soooo very much.
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| Wednesday, March 1st, 2006
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4:17 pm
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i gave up aim for lent.
so, i just deleted it from my computer.
i am even religious in my approach:
"'If your hand or foot causes you to stumble, cut it off and throw it away; it is better for you to enter maimed or lame than to have two hands or two feet and to be thrown into the eternal fire. And if your eye causes you to stumble, tear it out and throw it away; it is better for you to enter life with one eye than to have two eyes and to be thrown into the hell of fire.'" Matthew 18.8-9
eliminating my temptation from the source. although jesus, according to matthew, would probably want me to burn my computer or throw it from a 100 story building. too extremeist for me.
so, with this said, i expect you to call me, facebook message me, or email me allllll the time.
yes, i am definitely a social whore.
hugs and kisses,
monica.
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| Sunday, February 26th, 2006
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11:34 pm
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so, guys. uh, i fucked up my back carrying a case of water.
and my study group was cancelled because people realized they needed to read. which, sucks for me because i realized i am not going to read a long time ago.
and now i am procrasinating. hum de dum.
and i know most of you already know this, but i am just reaffirming the obvious in light of some recent misconceptions regarding my character where someone actually believed me to have feelings.
so to restate the obvious and destroy any doubt in your mind, i am making the following statement: i am, indeed, a cold hearted bitch.
and instead of 5 minutes, i think it has been a little over an hour.
rawr.
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| Tuesday, February 14th, 2006
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12:36 am
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i feel like i have been updating too much lately.
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| Sunday, February 12th, 2006
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8:22 pm
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hahahahaha. haha. ha.
this is becoming really amusing.
haha. i really did get fucked, you guys. its really unbelieveable, seriously.
at least she likes me, in some weird disguisting way i find that to be somewhat of a consolation prize.
hahaha, seriously. i love my life sometimes. it's really fucking brilliant.
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| Tuesday, January 31st, 2006
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2:28 am
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Okay, so basically it's come down to this. writing in livejournal at 2:28 in the morning in a study lounge. a study lounge I went into because I wanted to get off the internet, but instead ended up enabling my wireless internet and proceeded to livejournal to write about absolutely nothing.
I just ate puzzles, even though I told myself this morning when I woke up that I wouldn't. Which is, by the way, a very weird thought-waking up and telling yourself that you are not going to consume cheese fries at 2 in the morning-but the point being, i guess, is that i have absolutely no self control.
which, you would think would make me a sex machine. because obviously, no self control automatically equates to lots and lots of chocolate and sex. but, with me it really just means watching arrested development without nina, and consuming greasy food at odd hours.
by the way, i think i am totally digging my english teacher. she seems very minimalistic, if thats a word.
and i think i am vegetarian. well, i told Deborah tonight at dinner when I was eating my usual bagel and cream cheese that i am vegetarian for about five days a week, until i eat meat.
i am sorry how incoherent and jumpy everything is right now. but, that is how i feel. just very cluttered. i mean, you should really see my corner (if you have seen my dorm room you will know precisely what i am referring to) it is,for lack of better words, out of freaking control. I feel behind in a lot of ways. I think that is just my style. or I guess lack of style.
and Deborah said the most brilliant thing the other day...it seemed like it would fit perfectly into a book or a television show. but, it is as follows:
The road to hell is paved with good intentions, but does that mean that the road to heaven is lined with bad intentions? The phrase should rather say, "The road to hell is lined with intentions, both good and bad."
Of course, Deborah said it more eloquently because that is the kind of person she is. She speaks like she is reading, everything is very pieced together. or something, i don't even really know.
I really live an uninteresting life. I realize the stories i tell people have become so pathetic that i actually remmeber telling someone that my dad removed all the seeds from my lemons before sending them up to me at ucla. (Because I like to put lemons in tea, if there were seeds in the lemons, they would end up in my tea so my dad removed all of them) i am not sure if that makes him pathetic, or me more so for telling someone.
so for lack of better words, or lack of better thoughts. i will end here and await your prompt reply. please call me, or invite me places because i feel myself being eaten by time and idleness.
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| Monday, January 23rd, 2006
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3:12 am - : )
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they say that the way to a man's heart is through his stomach.
well, lets just say that my stomach is full and my heart is happy.
and my stomach is happy and my heart is full.
oh, and apparently i am a man.
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| Thursday, November 24th, 2005
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12:05 pm
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i am literally homesick. sick at home.
i am bedridden and my brain is foggy from all of the nasal decongestants i have so willingly ingested.
and my hair is officially brunette, my mom calls it chesnut or copper. its her birthday today so, happy birthday mummy!
happy thanksgiving.
and all of you, be thankful that you are not sick.
peace. out.
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| Sunday, November 20th, 2005
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3:54 pm - aren't we living? boy, we sure are.
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| Tuesday, October 25th, 2005
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5:31 pm
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objective: list 10 things that bring you joy and then tag 6 friends to do the same:
1) cold sunny days
2) coffee: smell, taste, feeling of it running through your veins. oh yes, i am addicted.
3) a good 'ol fashioned hearth
4) conan o'brien
5) euro trash
6) the concept of an ipod nano
7) bike riding
8) bedding
9) pecan sandies
10) scratch 'n sniff valentine's day cards
katie
deborah
brie (although i am pretty sure she already was "tagged")
bac
jessica
melissa
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| Sunday, October 23rd, 2005
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12:25 pm
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dearest journal,
this weekend i went home and this weekend i have not left home except to pick up my mother from her friend's house two miles away. i do not want to go back to ucla, today, or ever because i am really just content sitting here doing nothing. i was thinking about it and i really do enjoy sitting and i really enjoy when people visit me, allowing me to continue to sit while enjoying another person's company. this type of mentality reminds me of this comedy show i was watching last night where the comedian was explaining why men enjoy oral sex. he basically said that men enjoy oral sex because they are receiving sex and they don't have to move. that's me, minus the whole oral sex thing.
in other news, ucla is now 7-0. and this makes me a whore because posting football standings on my livejournal is just whoreish in general and shows that i have an overwhelming amount of school spirit. which, i do, but let's not publicize that too much. (i am really excited and i love the bruins!)
ugh. i love my house. i just look around and i really don't want to leave. i blame my parents for making me live in one house my whole life. obviously i am going to have major attachment issues, who wouldn't? i even went as far as telling my mom that she should have moved our family around a lot so i wouldn't have any attachment issues with people and places. she laughed, but i was serious. i am really attached to this place, especially my bed. so, i don't really have much to say except that i am going to school and i am slowly making new friends, losing them, and then making more friends. i miss all of you, a lot.
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| Friday, August 26th, 2005
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4:03 pm
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Write 20 random facts about yourself then tag the same amount of people as minutes it takes you to write the facts.
1) I eat about 7 meals a day.
2) I have secret obsessions with people.
3) I have an amazing memory. I don't remember telephone numbers or addresses, but I can recall conversations from 4 years ago and test questions from 7th grade.
4) I am extremely scared of failing and I often avoid anything where there is a chance i won't succeed.
5) I was obsessed with soap operas when i was in middle school; I even collected their cards. Kind of like baseball, but with soap stars.
6) I rub my nose when i am nervous...kind of like a cocaine addict would.
7) I have never seen porn, but i have been to a sex show.
8) I used to keep a notebook where i would do a character analysis of every one of my friends. Most people do it in their head; I kept records.
9) I love planning things and making schedules.
10) I love to go out to dinner. It is like my favorite thing to do.
11) I am extremely obsessed with the game Catch Phrase.
12) I used to take cooking classes with my mom, and to this day I still do not know how to make over-easy eggs, but i can easily make a chocolate soufflé.
13) I love to watch basketball.
14) When I am around 21, I want to dedicate a portion of my year to hiking.
15) I hate the feeling of chalk.
16) I am obsessed with chapstick eventhough it is unhealthy.
17) I am a very paranoid, but I hide it very well.
18) My cat is bigger than my dog.
19) I really enjoy watching the discovery health channel.
20) I really like reading restaurant menus and real estate/travel magazines.
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